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Stream of Consciousness Reflections…An Eye For An Eye

8 Jan

Aloha. What do you think about revenge? To be honest, I never fully digested the concept of revenge. Of course, I understood it but only on a superficial level. It was only after certain events that I came to a working definition of the desire for revenge.

Revenge seduces us into choosing it as a response to injustice or evil.

Life puts us to the test and in these moments we discover what we truly believe in. It is a sobering realization to acknowledge these desires in your being. We all have an ideal version of ourselves and how we would react when someone hurts us or our loved ones. Sometimes reality manifests itself differently and we don’t always live up to our idealized selves or react how we imagined we would. 

Johnny Depp Revenge

I always found this quote by Johnny Depp so intriguing and dark…

Now I understand people’s thirst for revenge but it somehow still feels wrong inside. Taking revenge would change who you are and compromise your ethics. I don’t feel that it is right to allow others to change who we are {even though sometimes it happens without our knowledge or consent}.

I have a post on revenge saved in my drafts folder. Perhaps I need to post it. Maybe this stream of consciousness reflection is telling me to do just that.

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Please enjoy An Eye For An Eye by UNKLE….

Lyrics

“Even now in heaven there were angels carrying savage weapons.

An eye for an eye A tooth for a tooth Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

An eye for an eye A tooth for a tooth Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

Does our rule benefit the earth?

Does it help the grass to grow? 

The sun to shine?

Is this darkness in you too?

Have you passed through this Night?

Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

When you’re going you’re not coming back from

Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

An eye for an eye A tooth for a tooth

Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

An eye for an eye A tooth for a tooth

Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

This great Evil… Where’s it coming from?

How’d it steal into the world?

Who’s doing this?

Who’s killing us?

Mocking us with the sight of what we might have known

Run, run, run… Run, run, run…

An eye for an eye… A tooth for a tooth…

Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

An eye for an eye… A tooth for a tooth…

Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

(An eye for an eye…)

Are you righteous?

(A tooth for a tooth…)

Kind?

(Run, run, run but you sure can’t hide…)

Does your confidence lie in this?

(An eye for an eye…)

Are you loved by all?

(A tooth for a tooth…)

Do you imagine your sufferings would be less?

(Run, run run, but you sure can’t hide…)

Because you loved goodness and truth?

An eye for an eye…

A tooth for a tooth…

Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide

Run, run, run, but you sure can’t hide…

What are you to me?”

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Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…Respect Yourself -Don Miguel Ruiz & Björk

5 Jan

“Everyone has a price, and life respects that price.

But that price is not measured in dollars or in gold;

It is measured in love.

More, than that, it is measured in self-love.

How much you love yourself–that is your price–

and life respects the price.

When you love yourself, your price is very high,

which means your tolerance for self-abuse is very low.

It’s very low because you respect yourself.”

Don Miguel Ruiz, Wisdom From The Mastery of Love

I Am Nobody's Bitch 001

When I was a child my mother taught me to respect people. What she didn’t tell me is that you need to have boundaries so that people will respect you. Not only do you have to have boundaries but you have to strictly enforce them as well.

I used to be so afraid of confrontations and of speaking up. I would always worry that I might upset, hurt or offend someone. To an extent, I was also afraid of being disliked and rejected. Since I did not like myself, I was so hungry for other people’s approval {even though I did not consciously know it at the time}.

The price of this silence was putting up with some disrespect. I would be lying if I said that I didn’t regret it because I deeply regret it. I also have to acknowledge that without these experiences, then I would not have come to these realizations.

They are lessons that I am still learning and life only keeps offering you more tests.

Being “nice” is an invitation for people to test your boundaries. These days, I would much rather have respect than just be a “nice” person. It seems like a universal law that unless you respect yourself then no one truly will.

Another thing that I learned is that some people do not deserve your respect or your presence in their lives. Please let me clarify what I mean. Everyone deserves basic respect as human beings. The respect that I am speaking about is the respect that people earn through their friendship, loyalty and compassion. Some people just do not deserve that level of respect from you. Some people do not deserve your friendship, loyalty and compassion.

Trust and respect need to be earned for them to hold any gravitas/weight.

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Please enjoy Army of Me by Bjork…

Lyrics

Army of Me

Björk

[Verse 1]
“Stand up
You’ve got to manage
I won’t sympathize
Anymore
[Chorus]
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me

[Verse 2]
You’re alright
There’s nothing wrong
Self-sufficience, please!
And get to work

[Chorus]
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me, army of me

[Verse 3]
You’re on your own now
We won’t save you
Your rescue squad
Is too exhausted

[Chorus]
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me

[Chorus]
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me, army of me.”

Copied & Pasted from https://genius.com/Bjork-army-of-me-lyrics

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Love & Respect,

-V.

My Dark Metamorphosis…

17 Oct

Hello again old friends…

It has been two years since I posted anything on this blog. I have been wanting to post something on this blog for such a long time. I had a wealth of ideas marinating in my mind yet I did not end up translating them into action.

What happened to me? I lost my confidence and to some extents my vitality. It seems that the longer you are away from writing or any other creative pursuit, the more you seem to lose your confidence as you criticize and doubt yourself.

Life has put me to the test in a myriad of different ways. I have often felt like the biblical Job who was rigorously tested by God. I felt like the tide had swept me under an abyss and in a way I lost myself. Like Alice in Wonderland, I ended up lost with only my intuition as my compass.

Despite all the spiritual darkness that I have been through, I feel as though my absence from this blog has been a time of tremendous self exploration and spiritual growth. Lately, I finally feel that I am slowly coming out of this darkness and am stronger than I have been.

Many blessings have come out of these dark days. I have had spiritual revelations and life epiphanies. My love of music and exercise has intensified more than ever. I have the deepest respect for both activities. Exercise helps me deal with life and its many challenges. Music is pure soul food and inspiration. The combination of exercising and listening to my music is so healing and relaxing.

I have been listening to so much of my beloved music. I am going to continue to feature it on this blog. I am going to continue to celebrate all of my favourite music, poetry, quotes, artists, films, t.v. shows, ideas, research, people, etcetera on this blog.

I am going to do some stream of consciousness posts because otherwise I will go into analysis paralysis and take too long to write anything. Also, the writing will be natural and organic because it is from the creative flow of my mind and whatever inspires me and haunts me. I am also going to work on all the blog posts saved in the drafts folder.

I have really missed having this blog. It is my passion project and creative outlet. I miss working on blog posts. My inquisitive mind loves doing research as I always learn from it. I love writing and editing. The most rewarding part of having this blog is reading your enlightening comments.

Thank you for still being here if you are. Please let me know if there is anything you would like to read here. I am open to requests.

Namaste, Love & Spiritual Light.

-V.

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