Tag Archives: Darkness

My Dark Metamorphosis…

17 Oct

Hello again old friends…

It has been two years since I posted anything on this blog. I have been wanting to post something on this blog for such a long time. I had a wealth of ideas marinating in my mind yet I did not end up translating them into action.

What happened to me? I lost my confidence and to some extents my vitality. It seems that the longer you are away from writing or any other creative pursuit, the more you seem to lose your confidence as you criticize and doubt yourself.

Life has put me to the test in a myriad of different ways. I have often felt like the biblical Job who was rigorously tested by God. I felt like the tide had swept me under an abyss and in a way I lost myself. Like Alice in Wonderland, I ended up lost with only my intuition as my compass.

Despite all the spiritual darkness that I have been through, I feel as though my absence from this blog has been a time of tremendous self exploration and spiritual growth. Lately, I finally feel that I am slowly coming out of this darkness and am stronger than I have been.

Many blessings have come out of these dark days. I have had spiritual revelations and life epiphanies. My love of music and exercise has intensified more than ever. I have the deepest respect for both activities. Exercise helps me deal with life and its many challenges. Music is pure soul food and inspiration. The combination of exercising and listening to my music is so healing and relaxing.

I have been listening to so much of my beloved music. I am going to continue to feature it on this blog. I am going to continue to celebrate all of my favourite music, poetry, quotes, artists, films, t.v. shows, ideas, research, people, etcetera on this blog.

I am going to do some stream of consciousness posts because otherwise I will go into analysis paralysis and take too long to write anything. Also, the writing will be natural and organic because it is from the creative flow of my mind and whatever inspires me and haunts me. I am also going to work on all the blog posts saved in the drafts folder.

I have really missed having this blog. It is my passion project and creative outlet. I miss working on blog posts. My inquisitive mind loves doing research as I always learn from it. I love writing and editing. The most rewarding part of having this blog is reading your enlightening comments.

Thank you for still being here if you are. Please let me know if there is anything you would like to read here. I am open to requests.

Namaste, Love & Spiritual Light.

-V.

Best of Me Hannibal

 

 

 

 

 

Reflection for today…Love Grows in Secret -Pablo Neruda

12 Feb

“I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret,

between the shadow and the soul. ” 

Pablo Neruda

There needs to be intimacy for love to grow…

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Please enjoy My Secret Friend By IAMX & Imogen Heap…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G-jMWzfj9gM

{I am seriously in love with this song.

IAMX/Chris Corner and Imogen Heap are magic}.

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For more information…

Pablo Neruda…http://www.poetryfoundation.org/bio/pablo-neruda

IAMX…http://www.iamx.eu/

Imogen Heap…http://www.imogenheap.com/

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Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…The Ocean of Consciousness -Rumi…

18 Oct

Rumi You Are The Ocean In An Entire Drop

I remember reading some Buddhist teachings many moons ago that spoke about the ocean of consciousness.

It spoke about each of us being a wave in the ocean.

We think that we are completely independent; that we are a single wave because of the illusion of our ego.

Our ego clouds and distorts our perception creating a false sense of self.

It is complicated as in Western society there is so much focus on the self: self-improvement, self-esteem, self-confidence, self-doubt, etc.

The truth is that while it may seem that we are individual waves,

we are actually part of the ocean; the ocean of humanity.

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I really cannot understand how some people can have no compassion for each other.

At the root of this poverty of the spirit is a lack of compassion for the self, selfishness and an overindulgence of the ego.

{One cannot offer compassion if you have no compassion for yourself}.

As I said to my friend, if we don’t help each other then we will all sink.

I know that we all have our individual problems but if we just focus on them, then we cannot get out of our heads and the prison of selfishness.

There is a delicate balance between having compassion and helping others with helping yourself and protecting yourself from harm. Boundaries are necessary.

I always struggle with how to have compassion while not losing myself.

The sad truth is that many people mistake kindness for weakness.

The truth is that it takes great strength to be compassionate in this world.

It takes great spiritual strength to open your heart and mind to offer your compassion. 

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 When the triple disasters were taking place in Japan in 2011, I was horrified. I was watching the news on the internet. I constantly watched BBC, CBC and Al Jazeera with tears in my eyes.

I could not help crying as I watched the news.

It hurt my heart and soul to witness such suffering.

I could not believe that on top of the tsunami and the earthquake there was a nuclear situation as well. As I thought of Fukushima, I was reminded of the Chernobyl nuclear disaster. I was very concerned and afraid for Japan. I still am.

While I had no family, friends or loved ones in Japan, I felt deep compassion for the Japanese.

It didn’t matter in the least if I didn’t know a single soul in Japan.

We are all interconnected and if Japan was suffering and grieving then we all were.

I still think of Japan and how the triple disasters affected and affect people today- especially the effects of nuclear contamination/radiation.

The reason that I share this is because I had an epiphany then.

My good friend and I were having coffee one day {during the disasters in 2011}.

I was telling him about what was happening in Japan.

He stopped me in the middle of my sentence and said very coldly, “you know what…I just don’t care.”

That is when I realized that something inside of him died.

To be honest, I was very disturbed by his comment and his attitude.

Upon deep reflection, I felt sadness and compassion for him.

He had just gone through a very painful and dark time with the illness of his mother. I know that this experience had a very damaging effect on him.

I think he was most likely spiritually disconnected and emotionally numb at that point.

He probably had nothing left to give as he was in desperate need of healing.

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Compassion is the greatest gift you can offer someone.

Compassion is what makes us truly human.

Our humanity is rooted in compassion.

*Remember that we are all in this life together.

We all depend on each other.

We are all interdependent as waves in the ocean of humanity.

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Please enjoy Ocean by Azam Ali and Loga Ramin Torkian as I felt it complimented this post.

It is from Azam Ali’s album: “Lamentation of Swans: A Journey Towards Silence.”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3558lJuA8Y8

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To learn more about Azam Ali, Loga Ramin Torkian and Niyaz…

http://www.niyazmusic.com/

Here is a brief description that I copied and pasted from their biography.

From this link: http://www.niyazmusic.com/#!/biography/

Niyaz, which means ‘yearning’ in Persian and Urdu, was formed in 2005 by Azam Ali, multi-instrumentalist Loga Ramin Torkian and two-time Grammy nominated producer and electronic musician Carmen Rizzo.

The band borrows from an historic lineage of Middle Eastern poets setting verse to music, perhaps most famously known today through the work of the 13th century Persian poet Rumi and the endless barrage of quotes attributed to him on Twitter and Facebook.

While the immediate goal of Niyaz was to explore the music and identity of Iranians living in exile and struggling to maintain their cultural identity in the modern world on their first two acclaimed records, Niyaz and Nine Heavens, the band has expanded that theme with Sumud.”

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Azam Ali is the singer with the heavenly voice in Niyaz.

Azam AliHer voice is truly “otherworldly” and hauntingly beautiful.

Azim Ali Otherworldly

She has also been a part of another band named VAS. Their albums include: Sunyata (1997), Offerings (1998), In the Garden of Souls (2000) and Feast of Silence (2004).

Azam has released seven albums between Niyaz and VAS.

Niyaz’s albums include: Niyaz (2005), Nine Heavens (2008) and Sumud (2012).

She has also released four solo albums: Portals of Grace (2002), Elysium for the Brave (2006), From Night to the Edge of Day (2011) and Lamentation of Swans- A Journey Towards Silence (2013).

Azam has also been involved in movie soundtracks (the movie 300) and video game soundtracks.

For more information, please visit her official website…

http://www.azamalimusic.com/main.php

*Much Love to Japan and the rest of the world.

My prayers are with Japan as they are facing another natural disaster in the form of a typhoon.

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Peace & Namaste Friends…

Reflection for today…Humility Reveals -Henry David Thoreau

3 Aug

“Humility like darkness reveals the heavenly lights.” 
Henry David Thoreau

http://www.walden.org/thoreau

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Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…Art Is A Question Mark -Marilyn Manson

8 Apr

“Art is a question mark,

not an answer.”

Marilyn Manson

David Lynch & Marilyn Manson sharing a happy moment…

David Lynch & Marilyn Manson share a love of darkness explored in art…
They are also both painters and musicians.

In this clip, Marilyn Manson discusses art and its relationship to spirituality and politics.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhnoKmbc1Tk

{Side Note…I would have loved to have Marilyn Manson as a teacher when I was in school.

I am sure that I would learn so much from him}.

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Manson thinks that “art is far more important than politics.”

For him art is the closest thing that can be religious because he likens God with the creative component of art.

Art is his spirituality.

He respects religion but he disagrees with the way in which religion has been used to manipulate people and limit their intellectual curiosity.

Marilyn Manson Religion

{My guess would be that he is more in favor of independent thinking and critical analysis}.

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Manson believes that the role of the artist in society is to affect people.

He says that art is your response.

This reminds me of David Lynch not wanting to explain his films.

David feels that each viewer should come up with their own artistic interpretation based on their own experience with the film.

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Do you agree or disagree with Marilyn Manson?

Why or why not?

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For more information…

David Lynchhttp://davidlynch.com/

Marilyn Manson…http://marilynmanson.com/

Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…Tears Speak For Themselves -Paulo Coelho

5 Feb

Tears speak for themselves

by Paulo Coelho on February 2, 2013

Our great goal in life is to love.

The rest is silence.

We need to love. Even when it leads us to the land where the lakes are made of tears, to that secret, mysterious place, the land of tears!

Tears speak for themselves. And when we feel that we have cried all we needed to cry, they still continue to flow. But when we believe that our life is destined to be a long walk through the Vale of Sorrows, the tears suddenly vanish.

Because we managed to keep our heart open, despite the pain.

Because we realised that the person who left us did not take the sun with them or leave darkness in their place. They simply left, and with every farewell comes a hidden hope.

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”

taken from MANUSCRIPT FOUND IN ACCRA

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Johnny Cash & June Carter: Eternal Lovers

To me Johnny Cash and June Carter illustrate what love is.

Someone that is home to your soul.

{More posts about their love in the future…}

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Paulo Coelho manages to capture the essence of love.

“Our great goal in life is to love.

The rest is silence.”

Tears are cathartic.

They help us to cleanse and heal.

Paulo Coelho reminds us of the need to cry in order to heal and open our hearts again.

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Here is a song that makes me cry…

Please enjoy Tragedy by Hayden.

Hayden is a soulful Canadian artist.

This achingly beautiful song is from his album Everything I Long For.

I highly recommend it.

I am so grateful that it was given to me as a gift.

What a gift it is to listen to it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2gZZMpmIzGA

“Broken bottle won’t hurt me
Nothing worse that I have dreamed
Gun shot in my chest you’ll leave
I can take that you will see
Late at night is when I dream
Horrible things are what I see
Hard for me to believe
I wake up and I won’t freeze
Car crash highway tragedy
Nothing worse than I have dreamed
Loss of my best friend I grieve
I can take that you will see.”

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For more information…

 Paulo Coelho… http://paulocoelho.com/

Hayden…http://wasteyourdaysaway.com/

Johnny Cash…http://www.johnnycash.com/

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Do you agree with Paulo Coelho?

I would love to hear your thoughts.

Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…The Gifts of Darkness -Marianne Williamson

1 Jan

“Until we have seen someone’s darkness, we don’t really know who they are.

Until we have forgiven someone’s darkness, we don’t really know what love is.”

Marianne Williamson

Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…Our Deepest Fear -Marianne Williamson

7 Aug

 

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear
is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness,
that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,

talented and fabulous?
Actually who are we not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking

so that other people
won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
We were born to make manifest

the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And when we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.”

Marianne Williamson

{read by Nelson Mandela at his inauguration ceremony in 1994}.

To learn more about Marianne Wiliamson and her writing,

please click on this link: http://www.marianne.com/

Peace & Namaste…

 

Reflection for today…Depression -Gabriel Byrne

7 Jul

” A single negative thought begins in your head.

That single negative thought interacts with another negative thought and becomes a reality.

And the world seems like the darkest, bleakest, blackest place that you can possibly be.

And it has nothing to do with logic, it has nothing to do with reality.

It’s a chemical, and I suppose ultimately becomes a spiritual imbalance in the body and in the mind.

But it feels like the truth.

That’s what’s so insidious about it.

-Gabriel Byrne

Reflection for today…Enlightenment -Carl Jung

2 Feb

Enlightenment is not imagining figures of light
but making the darkness conscious.”
  -Carl Jung
Carl Jung Reading

Buddha Moon

How can you transform darkness into consciousness in your life?

How can you change darkness into light?

Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…The Laughing Heart -Charles Bukowski

23 Jan

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHOHi5ueo0A

“Your life is your life.
Don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.
Be on the watch.
There are ways out.
There is light somewhere.
It may not be much light but it beats the darkness.
Be on the watch.
The gods will offer you chances.
Know them.
Take them.
You can’t beat death but you can beat death in life,
Sometimes and the more often you learn to do it,
The more light there will be.
Your life is your life.
Know it while you have it.
You are marvelous
The gods wait to delight in you.”

-Charles Bukowski

Bukowski Piano
Bukowski Waving
Bukowski Peace
I just love the idea of beating death in life…pure genius.
Bukowski Yelling
I totally agree with Tom Waits that this poem is a beauty!
Bukowski Typewriter

How can you “beat death in life?”

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For more information on Charles Bukowski,

please visit: http://bukowski.net/

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Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…I Wish I Could Show You -Hafiz

21 Jan

  I wish I could show you,

  when you are 

                       lonely 

                                 or in darkness,

                                                               the Astounding Light

                                                                                                         of your own Being.

                                                                                                                                              -Hafiz

Sun and moon (comp)

Photo Courtesy of Macrotim on Flickr:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/macrotim/118559381/

                                                         Peace & Namaste…

Reflection for today…The Sole Purpose of Human Existence -Carl Jung

19 Jan
“As far as we can discern,
the sole purpose of human existence
is to kindle a light of meaning
in the darkness of mere being
.”

-Carl Jung from: Memories, Dreams, Reflections