Tag Archives: Anxiety

Reflection for today…Buddhist Soulmate Test

15 Oct
Is meeting your soulmate like swimming in an ocean of spiritual tranquillity?
Is meeting your soulmate like swimming in an ocean of spiritual tranquillity?

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This reflection feels so refreshing to me because the concept of soulmates encountering each other usually involves feelings of anxiety.

I imagine feeling a profound sense of spiritual tranquillity upon meeting one’s soulmate.

I imagine it would be a relief to meet this person and it would feel like finding the last piece of a puzzle that you have been working on all of your life.

Instead of feeling anxiety, why not savour the mystery?

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Listening to aqueous transmission makes me feel the spiritual peace that I am envisioning when meeting one’s soulmate.

Please enjoy Aqueous Transmission by Incubus…

90 Minute Long Extended Version…

“The final song, “Aqueous Transmission”, employs the use of Chinese instruments such as the pipa and is accompanied by a Japanese orchestra. The pipa used on the recording was given to Mike Einziger from Steve Vai.[3] “Aqueous Transmission” is 7 minutes and 46 seconds long, with the last-minute consisting of frogs croaking outside the studio in Malibu. Boyd jokingly said that the purpose of the song was to make “the listener pee in his/her pants” from relaxation.” Copied from https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Morning_View

“Lead singer Brandon Boyd: Perhaps our most ambitious work to date, was first conceived with an instrument quite alien to Incubus and all of rock music to be precise. A ‘Ko-kyu’ is what was used here and it was donated by a very generous and talented man by the name of Steve Vai. One late evening we began conjuring and experimenting with this track and it quickly brought to mind the image and analogy of floating freely down a river; hence the content of the song. Our friend Suzi Katayama, who has in the past worked string arrangements with the likes of Björk, Madonna and even Yours Truly for an acoustic performance in LA, lent her classical finesse to this story. And in doing so helped it become exactly what we envisioned; a song so atmospheric and vibratory, it would make those who listened to it doze off into a land of rivers, kung fu and unicorns, eventually making the listener pee in her/his pants. (Attainable goals I think, but please don’t operate any heavy machinery while listening to this one).”

“The noises at the end are thousands of frogs that were recorded outside the Malibu mansion where Incubus recorded Morning View. It wasn’t easy to get the sound – every time they’d come out to record, the frogs would shut up.” Copied and pasted from https://www.songfacts.com/facts/incubus/aqueous-transmission

“The final track from the album, it is a serene and enveloping piece. The tones of the Chinese pipa contrast with the strings in the background. Add to this the mellow Shakuhachi interludes and the ambient sounds and it is the perfect track for laying back and drifting down the river that the lyrics describe.” Copied and pasted from https://www.last.fm/music/Incubus/_/Aqueous+Transmission/+wiki

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If you enjoy listening to serene sounds then you might enjoy listening to this: https://mynoise.net/NoiseMachines/japaneseGardenSoundscapeGenerator.php

Thank you so much for this link Olly.
I adored listening to the Japanese garden.
Gracias.

A Sophisticated Quietude

By using elements such as rocks, streams, ponds, and islands interleaved with dense vegetation, Japanese gardens recreate the world in miniature. To the observer, they are a beauty for the eye, and for the ears!

Enjoy spending a quiet afternoon in our Japanese Garden, while a gentle breeze caresses bamboo leaves and a solitary wind chime. In the distance, you hear the rumble of a distant waterfall. Closer to you, the cicadas remind you that the summer just started.

This soundscape has been made possible thanks to the kind contribution of Daniel Mills, a fan of myNoise who lives in Japan. Among the various recordings collected, one in particular deserves a special attention: the sound of a Shishi-Odoshi, an ingenious device made of bamboo, which literally translates as ‘Deer Scarer’. The Shishi-Odoshi works from the water of a fountain to create a sharp sound, and is used as a scarecrow. It is often associated with meditational environments too, and serves as a slow paced timer.

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Aqueous Transmission

Incubus

Produced by Scott Litt & Incubus

Album Morning View

[Verse 1]
“I’m floating down a river
Oars freed from their holes long ago
Lying face up on the floor of my vessel
I marvel at the stars and feel my heart overflow

[Chorus]
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river

[Verse 2]
Two weeks without my lover
I’m in this boat alone
Floating down a river named emotion
Will I make it back to shore or drift into the unknown

[Chorus]
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river

[Verse 3]
I’m building an antenna
Transmissions will be sent when I am through

Maybe we could meet again further down the river
And share what we both discovered then revel in the view

[Chorus]
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river

[Outro]
I’m floating down a river
I’m floating down a river
I’m floating down a river
I’m floating down a river
I’m floating down a river
I’m floating down a river
I’m floating down a river
I’m floating down a river.”

Lyrics Copied and Pasted from https://genius.com/Incubus-aqueous-transmission-lyrics

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Further Research

Incubushttps://www.incubushq.com/

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Wishing you Spiritual Peace & Soulmate Love,

-V.

Psychoanalysis As Archaeology in Penny Dreadful

14 May

Dedicated to O…

Freud famously described psychoanalysis as archaeology, the unearthing of meaning layered deep beneath an “expanse of ruins.

In television and movies it’s closer to a detective story.”

https://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/28/arts/television/28stan.html

Penny Dreadful Dr Seward & Vanessa Ives

In their first meeting, Vanessa Ives {Eva Green} and Dr.Seward {Patti LuPone} explore the intimate relationship between {potential} patient and psychologist.

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This brilliant scene from Penny Dreadful illustrates how a alienist/psychologist/therapist/psychiatrist excavates the truth through words, gestures/body language, actions, etc. Although it is the first time that Vanessa Ives and Dr.Seward meet, the alienist sets her boundaries. Since it is a preliminary consultation, she has to assess if Vanessa will be her patient {“if I take your case”}. 

Vanessa’s gestures are psychoanalyzed {why are you scratching your hand? Why were you doing that?}. Vanessa replies shyly that she had an itch. Dr.Seward says “no, you didn’t” with conviction. To Dr.Seward, the scratching of the hand is not as it appears; it connotes nervousness/anxiety. Every gesture speaks volumes to the alienist/psychologist/psychiatrist

Vanessa sees Dr.Seward’s observations as a challenge. She says, “this is a challenge. You’ll see if I am worthy of study.” Her astute observations about Dr.Seward’s criteria are accurate. Through prelimiary psychoanalysis, the therapist is trying to assess if Vanessa is worthy of her time, energy and talents. Is she worth having as a patient?

Dr.Seward warns Vanessa, “I am not your friend or your priest or your husband. I am your doctor. You come to me to get better because you are ill- no other reason. Do you understand that?” She sets her professional boundaries clearly. The purpose of therapy is to heal Vanessa of her illness.

Dr.Seward’s compassion shines through despite her tough demeanor. She asks Vanessa, do you understand that you are ill- not bad, not unworthy- just ill? Depression often tricks a person into thinking that they are unworthy. It tells many lies. The therapist must convince the patient of their depressed state instead of internalizing a depressed identity.

She resassures Vanessa that there are “no emotions unwelcome in this room.” Vanessa is encouraged to release her emotions because it is cathartic to do so. Dr.Seward is also communicating to Vanessa that she will not be judged. She is free to speak and express herself as necessary. She also warns her, “if this process doesn’t appeal to you, the door is there.” It almost sounds like she is testing Vanessa or interrogating her at times.

The turning point is when Vanessa takes control of the narrative. She says with a smile, “you don’t want me to leave…because I scratch my hand. You find that telling…those phobias that interest you.” She assures the doctor that she might interest her as a patient. Vanessa notes that Dr.Seward doesn’t need the ten shillings but she does need interesting people to collect. Dr.Seward disagree with her by saying that she takes patients on to cure them. Vanessa asks, what the difference is between collecting and curing?

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This scene is when Dr.Seward really showcases her talents as the skilled alienist. She ends her analsysis with the metaphor of the ouroboros. {The snake eating its tail is a symbol of infinity}. In essence, Dr.Seward is telling Vanessa that she is trapped in an endless cycle of unhappiness as she constantly tortures herself.

12 Monkeys End At The Beginning

The ouroboros from the 12 Monkeys television series from Syfy

Dr. Seward (to Vanessa Ives):

“I already know what’s wrong with you.

You’re unhappy. You’re isolated.

You think you’re the cause of this unhappiness and are unworthy of affection so you’ve few friends.

Recently you lost something you think very important- your lover, your faith, your family, or all three.

You blame yourself for this, so it makes you neurotic and you don’t sleep and don’t eat anything healthy anyway.

You used to take care of your appearance, but you’ve lost interest in that, so you avoid mirrors.

Sunlight bothers you, so you avoid that too, about which you’re guilty because you think it’s unhealthy and even immoral not to like the sun.

You’re not a woman of convention or you wouldn’t be here, but you like to pretend you are so people don’t notice you.

But you sometimes like that as well, and can dress to draw the eye. But then you think the men who look at you are fools, or worse, to be taken in by such an obvious outward show.

So, instead you’re drawn to dark, complicated, impossible men, assuring your own unhappiness and isolation because, after all, you’re happiest alone.

But not even then because you can’t stop thinking about what you’ve lost, again, for which you blame yourself.

So the cycle goes on, the snake eating its own tail.”

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I highly recommend watching Penny Dreadful.

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These scenes convey the brilliant acting of Eva Green, Patti LuPone and the work of the creative teams behind Penny Dreadful. It also highlights the emancipating insight that one can gain from psychotherapy. I have been in psychotherapy and it is one of the best decisions I have made. The internal work is so challenging and often painful but it is worth it in terms of healing, personal development, self-discovery, growth, etc. I highly recommend it.

The key is being ready to open yourself up to examine your memory palace/the locked rooms in your mind and finding the right alienist/psychologist/therapist for you.

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P.s. I plan to do posts about the television shows Penny Dreadful; 12 Monkeys; the alienist; etc.

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Further Research…

Penny DreadfulPenny Dreadful’s Internet Movie Database Page

Eva Green..Eva Green’s Internet Movie Database Page

Patti LuPonePatti LuPone’s Internet Movie Database Page

12 Monkeys12 Monkey’s Internet Movie Database Page

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Peace & Psychoanalytic Love,

V.

Stream of Consciousness Reflections…The Spiritual Lessons of The Pandemic…

16 Apr

Aloha dear friends/readers.

How is life treating you? I pray well.

I started this blog many years ago to reflect on life,  ideas, theories, philosophies, truths, emotions, people, the world, the inner workings of my mind, etc.

Perhaps it was also an attempt to access the locked room in my mind- my subconscious.

I have always lived a life of quiet reflection to connect more deeply with my spirituality and my self. Now I think it is the quintessential time for all of us to reflect on the life we were living and how we are living now. This pandemic and quarantine have taught us all so much. {I am aware that our lessons are tailored to each of us}.

What is still important? What remnants of the past carry over to the present? Are your ethics and priorities the same? Do you have more clarity now? Will the changes in ourselves, in others and our lives be sustainable? We will go back to how we were when this over? Hopefully, we are fluid like the ebbs and flows of the ocean. 

I am reflecting on what I am supposed to learn and the hidden lessons in the chaos.

Compassion is still the highest form of love because it is spiritual love.

Altruism exists– even though the critics/haters disagree. {Unfortunately, selfishness also exists}.

We are all interconnected. We all affect each other and in some cases, we all need each other. {Perhaps now we can see the invisible threads that unite us. The ego always works to disconnect us from each other through the illusion of seperation}. In essence, we are all waves in the same ocean of humanity.

Courage can be born out of necessity.

Health is wealth.

Reflection/inner introspection is a vital and meditative activity for your soul and mind.

Fear can seduce us into paralysis if we let it.

Creative problem-solving is vital in life.

We all need to take care of our mental health {as well as our physical health}- especially now. Depression and anxiety can slowly invite its way into our lives if we are not mindful.

People mean more to us than we realized- especially loved ones or family.

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Please enjoy Ocean by Azam Ali featuring Loga Ramin Torkia

{This song and Azam Ali’s singing gives me such peace}…

So does seeing the beautiful cinematography that showcases the exquisite beauty of Mexico.

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What are your lessons from the pandemic and quarantine?

I would love to hear them.

I hope to share more lessons in the future…

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Further Research…

Azam Alihttps://azamalimusic.com/

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Peace & Compassionate Love,

-V.

 

Reflection for today…Surprises About Humanity- The Dalai Lama

12 Aug

 

“What surprises you so much about humanity?

 

Man.

Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money.

Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health.

And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present;
the result being that he does not live in the present or the future;

he lives as if he is never going to die,

and then dies having never really lived.”

His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Peace & Namaste…